Skandhas

I am a very well conditioned being. I fall into my patterns so easily. In fact, I've even let my meditation practice slip away again. But now I'm much more aware of my habits, my escapism, procrastination and why I do those things. But I can see that permanent change can't happen quickly. It takes years to decondition oneself. For instance the year of psychotherapy I did was fantastic. It worked and I became much more insightful and self-aware. That's only the first steps though. Because once that work stopped I started slipping into some of my own patterns again. This is the pull of my humanity, I suppose. At least now I'm aware and I can't be hijacked by those habits without consenting.